Day 12: What I Believe In

I have been racking my brains on what to write about this topic. For a while, I really questioned myself, what exactly do I believe in? There are so many things I do believe in, but I could not seem to articulate them properly, until a few days ago. I was just lying on my bed one afternoon and I suddenly thought of the Bible verses I have learned growing up. These Bible verses were the ones I have learned in Sunday School at church. I’ve memorized these and a lot more back then. No, I am not what you would call religious, but I do value my faith although that might not be evident because I have not been practicing it, and not even going to church anymore. (life struggles and the like, personal stuff). But anyway, after all those times, I’m glad I have found my back to what I have learned growing up, and I thought this was a great reminder as well for me, with everything that has been going on. I believe the Bible and God’s promises.

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16

I believe that God loves me and He save me from my sins through Jesus. It’s something that I always beat myself up for. The guilt of my sins—forgetting that Jesus had already died for them. It’s not an excuse to keep on sinning, but rather strive for a life that is pleasing to Him and ask for forgiveness whenever I fall short. It’s a constant struggle.

So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you. Matthew 7:12a

The Golden Rule. It’s the most basic of things, really. One of the things I actually unconsciously do. I mean I am nice, but I can be nasty too. But most of the time I try to be nice to people, not because I want to be acknowledged as being such, but because I know how it’s unpleasant when people treat you badly.  And also because nothing rewarding comes out of treating people badly.

But seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you. Matthew 6:33

This is one of the things that I truly believe in, but find very hard to do. Honestly. I have witnessed lives changed because of how faithful they are to God, how they always put Him first and do everything for His glory. My mom always reminds me of this promise, and I take it for granted. I have experienced blessings and blessing upon me before when I served God, with the best that I could. And now, where exactly am I?

In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths. Proverbs 3:6

This was one of my life verses way back, in fact, I made this my life verse when I transferred to Silliman University way back 2009. And things happened and I slowly slipped away and forgot about it, or rather I brushed it off and went my own way.

In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. I Thessalonians 5:18

I believe in giving thanks for everything, but I still question the part how everything in my life is the will of God for me. But I guess this is what they say about trusting His will even when you have doubts. After all, that is what faith is all about.  ( “Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.”  Hebrews 11:1)

Before, I used to have no qualms talking about my spiritual life. I am actually slightly feeling uncomfortable sharing this entry. And I am ashamed of myself for feeling uncomfortable about it because there’s really nothing to be uncomfortable about. Maybe because I rarely talk about it, and my life does not reflect what I say that I believe in.  Maybe that’s why it took me so long to write this. But overall I’m glad I was able to finally do this entry. It reminded me of a lot of things that I have forgotten.

2 Replies to “Day 12: What I Believe In”

  1. I’m actually quite grateful you wrote this entry, Mist. It made me think about my attitude towards religion and everything and anything in between. In all honesty, I’ve become resentful and resistant because of the hardships I’ve been through before and after marriage, but for the past few weeks I’ve been seeking Him, asking for forgiveness, and even asking Him for answers. “Why am I going through this?” or “Why is this happening to me?”

    I’m obviously not the ideal Christian, but I am finding my way back and trying all my best to learn how to be a good person through Him. These verses were good reminders for me to, so thank you so much for writing this and for sharing these.

    My favorite is actually the book in the Bible is Exodus from the Old Testament. 🙂 Just wanted to throw that out here, haha!

  2. Hey Stef, thank you and I’m glad that I was able to share this with you. It’s so hard to live a life for God when everything just seems to be so difficult to handle. But maybe that’s why it’s becoming difficult because we just never sought for His guidance in everything? That’s what I have always been thinking. I mean, hardships will always be there, even way back I experienced them but the difference was that somehow I was at peace, you know that kind of peace that you just know things will be better. And now I don’t seem to have that anymore. It reminds me of this other verse, “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:7. My mom always says that God’s promises are always available for us, all we have to do is claim them. (And I don’t or rather I forget about it and do things my way.)

    A few years back, I was surrounded by people who were not ashamed of their faith. And it was great. We would talk about the struggles in our spiritual life and would continue to encourage and empower each other through prayer. And after moving here in Silliman it has been a struggle. I’m in a company of people who don’t believe in God or the Bible, those who mock people’s beliefs, those who just don’t take you seriously when you start talking about God and even debates with you and challenges your faith. I am ashamed to admit that I have lived a life afraid and embarrassed of even talking about my faith since then, because of the fear of being branded as a hypocrite and a self-righteous person. There’s also the struggle of living in sin and guilt and somehow it just makes me more ashamed and afraid.

    But yeah, like you, I want to go back to God, and ask for forgiveness for everything. And slowly, just slowly live a life again that is pleasing to Him.

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